Sometimes someone can mean so much to you, not even the truth can change your mind

While I was on vacation I've got a moment to think about everything that happened, it has been a tough period however it wasn't so clear to everyone that I really suffered. I've tried to forget everything but that doesn't work, it has been to real (in a stupid way, 'cause it wasn't) but sometimes you think you are doing the right things, you think you can handle it and you are smart enough to know what's real and what's not. But I know that it's too late now to accuse myself for my mistakes, you are the one who is guilty, not me.

But I'm sure now, I won't take effords anymore to forget it, that isn't the right way for me, I can't cope with that. The right thing is to put it away somewhere in the backyard of my head, it will never disappear but it won't be one of my main thoughts anymore and that's something I can deal with.

So I will move on, like I always did, but now I will move on with whole my head and body, and there is one thing I can't hide: I'm proud of myself I've finally made this step!
And I'm sure you have allready moved on, but I hope you won't ever forget your blame, idiot.

song: Konstantine - Something Corporate